So, I went to the doctor. And he said I might have depression. Like, DIAGNOSED depression. You guys don't know how scared I was. I was really expecting him to chase me with needles, but it turned out alright. Actually, scratch that, it was boring.
But geez, my mom was telling the doctor my life story.
Apparently, I'm an overly-sensitive girl who starts a club each year, and each time, it fails. I'm also obsessed with becoming popular. I am also clingy to only one person, and I throw out other people. Last year, there was one person who got up and walked away and apparently I told him, "TAKE ME WITH YOU!!!!...."
Am I really lying to my mom that much? She doesn't even know my life story. She's got the over-sensitive part right, but the rest was wrong! I only started a club once, I'm still friendly with most of its former members(shockingly). I'm not obsessed with becoming popular, the 'popular' kids at my school are mostly made of fails and stay-backs(other than Jaida. She's really nice, and the other popular kids downgrade her. I try to help her a lot, but usually I just become a target too.)...why would I want to be one of them?! I can really see them as druggies in the future! I only have a desire to make more friends. And that boy? Oh, you guys should remember all about him...when I first started dA, it was a year ago, I made some long essays about him. I have a weird system that if I am jealous of a person (oftentimes-no,I mean always-a person who has many friends and is happy), I'll become their friend to see if I can a) become friends with their many friends or in the least b) learn how to be like them. But if it was a guy, I always needed backup. So, behind the wall that said 'friendship' was a wall that said 'love'. Behind that was 'jealousy'. And these days, it has gone to 'insanity'. I just want to be like them, and it has never worked out. Anyways, I was jealous of him. But I could never say it.
Ah...why do so many people think Jack Frost is hot? *I actually said 'ikemen'.
Listening to: the voice in my head
Playing: MineCraft(it's in another tab)